June 5, 2013

Overwhelmed With Gratitude

Mamas.  I cannot tell you how much your words of love and support have meant to both Mike and me.  We are simply overwhelmed with gratitude.  

It's funny, once I published the article, I felt the weight of the last two weeks lift a bit.  And as we read through your thoughts – supportive, funny, tearful – the strangest thing happened:  I started to cry.  For the first time in two weeks I felt unburdened enough to cry.  Sometimes when you get into fight mode, you don't let your guard down, you know?  So thank you all for taking the time to lift me up so that I could break down.  I needed it.

This feeling of…connectedness is, without a doubt, my favorite part of blogging.  Reader Surina said it so eloquently in one of the comments:  

As you move through this experience now, all I can hope is that our comments here, though small in gesture, in some tiny way, let you know that you are not alone, and that you are cared for and matter so much to us all.

Throwing huge hugs, strength, love, and courage out into the universe to fill the spaces between us.

 

We are not alone, are we?  None of us are.  So right back at you, Mamas:  Love and hope and gratitude…filling the spaces between us.

So much love,

S

 

 

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  • Lena
    June 5, 2013

    So much love right back at ya.

  • Amanda | naturalmommie.com
    June 5, 2013

    Shana I just read your post now. My heart sunk, belly flopped and hot tears streamed as I read the words.
    Mama. I am so SO sorry that you have to go through this right now.
    I had no idea that your instagram post about “inflammation” was about this. THIS.
    Sending you tons of love from Canada, friend. xoxo
    Amanda

  • Belinda
    June 5, 2013

    xoxo..its all I can say…You are my friend although we have never met…

  • jen
    June 5, 2013

    From a fellow-Mama and cancer-survivor (nearing the five year ALL CLEAN mark), I am so so so very sorry that you are going through this. Life will never be the same again. Going through treatment sucks. But, mark my words, afterwards? Life will have never felt so precious. Sending love and peace.

  • Kim
    June 5, 2013

    Lots of love and kia kaha (stay strong) from New Zealand xoxo

  • Shelley
    June 6, 2013

    I wish I’d come out of the lurking hiding of a blog reader earlier, but seriously – sending prayers, love, and good juju your way. Been trying to write more, but keep typing, deleting, typing, deleting, repeat, but basically just want you to know that my thoughts and prayers are that you are and will be fine – really…FINE – and that you will feel and always know that you are BEAUTIFUL. And a great mama – those boys are lucky & blessed :)

  • Amy
    June 6, 2013

    Sending you prayers, hugs and good thoughts. We’ve never met, but I have been thinking about you constantly this week. I live just outside of Philly, so if you need anything, just put the word out!

  • Naomi
    June 6, 2013

    We are all rooting for you, Shana! I was so touched by your post. As usual, you are beautifully eloquent.

  • Megan McCaffrey
    June 6, 2013

    When I read your initial post, I cried and called my husband who gave a very normal response, “but you don’t know her, right?”
    While he has a point, I have been following your blog for so long (and literally checking it first thing in the morning) that I feel like you ARE a dear friend of mine. Your blog has helped so many women gain back confidence that is obliterated by pregnancy, childbirth, breastfeeding and on and on.
    I hope that keeping up the blog gives you a nice distraction during the next few months, because I think I speak for a lot of people when I say I really don’t know what I’d do without it! Happy thoughts your way, mama.

  • a different Megan
    June 6, 2013

    It’s funny, all day I kept wanting to tell people about “my friend with breast cancer” and had to keep shutting up because how do you explain that your “friend” is a blogger that you never met? It made me giggle to myself. But this blog was a revelation to me when I first discovered it, and remains so today. It’s so real, and I love it. Best wishes, Shana.

  • natalie
    June 6, 2013

    I agree with all the other mommas, I have been folowing for so kong I feel like were total bffs. When I was in college my mok found a precancerous lump… being a mom to 4 girls, it scared all of us shitless. When I was prg with my first I found a lump wnd felt so alon because we didn’t want to tell anyone. I am so happy telling everyone has left you feeling more open and less stressed. You are so strong and such a fighter. I will be praying everyday!

  • tammy
    June 6, 2013

    Much love, hugs and thoughts coming your prayers for the journey ahead Girl!

  • Lindsey
    June 6, 2013

    Shana,
    Lots of love and positive healing thoughts coming to you from Colorado!
    Be kind to yourself.
    Lindsey

  • Stephanie
    June 6, 2013

    OMG,I haven’t visited in awhile and just saw this. I feel like I “know” you after reading your posts for so long. Just wanted to give hugs and tell you that I know you’re going to be fine. I just do, that’s all. Same as my my boss who had the same thing happen about 4 years ago, age 39, three kids. She was back to being a bad ass in no time. xoxo

  • Polina
    June 6, 2013

    Dear Shana,
    You are so special to me, words can hardly express how i feel right now. You are my friend, my sister, my little online haven of helpful advice, inspiration, humor and positivity.
    I am wishing you a complete healing (mind, body and soul) and speedy recovery! Stay strong, mama, you are loved more than you will ever know!

  • Belinda
    June 6, 2013

    I could,t agree with you more! I feel the same way!!, It’s my friend …that I,Ve never met…

  • Terri O.
    June 6, 2013

    I adore you Shana and will be praying for your peace and healthy recovery. And for Mike’s too!

  • Hedcase
    June 6, 2013

    Sending you lots of love and strength from California!

  • elise
    June 6, 2013

    I stumbled across this blog while looking for jeans. But I had to comment on this post because my mother was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer. She found a lump but didn’t tell anyone for 2 years!! It was really scary and horrible but now she made it five years so there is hope!!! You were brave for going to the doctor!

  • Amanda
    June 6, 2013

    Thinking about you lots! Huge hugs!!! A good cry feels so good sometimes!

  • Katie
    June 6, 2013

    I’m just catching up on ANMJ. I’m so sorry to hear about your ordeal. I found your blog a few months ago and I’ve been a faithful reader since then. I’m sending prayers, happiness, and light your way. Hang in there, Mama. You’re a strong amazing woman!

  • Cams
    June 7, 2013

    You know I’m always here :).
    xx.

  • jen
    June 7, 2013

    Girl, you soak up every bit of the good vibes and love that are coming your way! I’m glad you had a good cry.

  • johanna
    June 7, 2013

    Oh my. Oh my. I haven’t read the blogs in a bit because it’s report card season for us teachers in Canada and I am so… moved by you sharing this with us, enraged that this happend to you (you are so nice, so, so, so nice, you do not deserve this! I mean, who does? right? but you definitely don’t) and so inspired by how you are taking it. be strong, shana. you already are, but there is so much support and love coming at you from all ends of the internet– soak it up. xo johanna

  • Kim
    June 11, 2013

    Shana – I have been thinking about you and your family and just wanted you to know that. We have not met in real life, but I have read, enjoyed, and trusted your blog for so long that I feel I know you a bit. Wishing you a speedy, full, and easy recovery.

  • Rebecca N
    June 11, 2013

    I am so sorry that you have to go through this, but so glad that they caught it in time and gave you a good prognosis. I’m sure your new boobies will be gorgeous! You and your beautiful family are in my thoughts.

  • Stephanie
    June 11, 2013

    Read your post a few days ago and have been thinking about you. I hate that you are going through something so scary right now. Thank you for all the little boosts you’ve given me over the past few years. Thank you for the humor, reality and encouragement that you offer so genuinely. Prayers for a complete recovery.

  • Kara
    June 11, 2013

    I am so sorry to read about your diagnosis. I felt sad as though this had happened to a close friend (not that I wouldn’t feel sad about anyone I heard of being diagnosed with cancer!) I have been faithfully reading this blog for over two years, and inspired my style for pregnancy and now new-mommy-needing-nursing-friendly-attire-that-isn’t-frumpy stages. Furthermore, I used to read lots of celebrity fashion blogs and then figure out how to translate that to my everyday life. Once I discovered this one, I let you do all the work for me and just copied what you are doing. I don’t think I have ever commented before, but wanted to let you know I am praying for smooth surgeries, your sweet husband and boys and zero leftover cancer! Thank you for this blog. I’m sorry I have never said it before!

  • Kristy
    June 13, 2013

    Hey Shana,
    I keep an eye on your blog to check on you every once in a while. I was so surprised to hear your news. However, I know that you are going to be fine. You are one of the strongest, most upbeat, positive people I have ever had the opportunity to spend time with.
    I had a simular experience after having Tirzah. She was only 2 when I had open heart surgery to remove a large mass that was connected to my heart. It was a scary time, but I don’t regret the experience at all. The mass ended up not being cancerous and I learned so much about myself and my values along the way.
    I will be thinking of you and sending you love while you go through all of this. I’m not on Facebook anymore, but can be reached at kristymarieward@gmail.com if you ever want to chat.
    Love you lots,
    Kristy

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