The Last Haircut(s)…and Hello, Wig



This short little haircut has served me well.  But it's thinned to the point that I have major bald spots on the top of my head, and can't leave the house without a hat.  If you follow me on Instagram, you may remember seeing the ginormous clump of hair that fell out this morning.  UGH.  There is hair on our floors, hair on the couch, hair on our clothes, hair in our food.  (Someone needs to write a Dr. Seuss mom-has-cancer book.  "It's all over the floor!  It's all over the chair!  But guess where it's not?  There's no hair up on there!")

I'm amazed, really, that I have any hair left on my head.  This morning Raines pulls (yet another) hair out of his cereal and says, "Mom, I hate to tell you this…but it seems like your hair is trying to take over the world."

Yeah…OK.  Back to Salon Ziza I go.  This time, because I was so patchy, Shannon cut my hair in their privacy room.  I think it's amazingly awesome that they even have a privacy room.  I mean, seriously, wow.


Wanna see what Shannon did?

Haircut Three


Look at how anxious I look.  It is the weirdest feeling in the world, having your hair cut-off under these circumstances.  Very out-of-body.

But with some clever combing-over, Shannon came up with something that (kinda) hid my bald spots.  Mostly.




This is not my haircut-for-life, but I could wear this for a bit.  Notice how I went in wearing both lipstick and a statement necklace.  Overcompensating much?  YES.  (And thanks for the necklace, Bauble Bar!)

It crossed my mind to keep it like this….but in addition to the shedding, my hair actually hurts if you move it (or sleep on it).  So I told her to keep [gulp] going.

Haircut FOUR

Ha, Ha.  Mohawking it up.


Haircut FIVE


Channeling Mia Farrow.  God, that's some short hair.  



Um.  Ok.  I kinda like it?  All things considered?  I was all ready to walk out like this when both Mike and Shannon shook their heads.  The front is cute.  The back?  Uh, let's just say that it needs to be covered. *cough* Balding *cough*

And Shannon, bless her heart, fitted my wig, lined it with something comfy, and trimmed it up to fit my face better.

And then Mike snapped this ridiculous glamour shot and we laughed and laughed and laughed:


I mean really.  My wig is a little too Texas-cheerleader, but, well, when else can you channel that Dallas Cowgirl vibe?  I just wish wigs were more comfortable – after about an hour, it started to give me a headache…and these things are crazy-hot.  Which, you know…awesome with chemo-induced hot flashes.  

I suspect that most of the time I'll be in a headscarf.  I'm starting to get the allure.



I just need to keep little hands OFF.  How embarassing.


Tomorrow is Chemo #2.  Crazy.   I've prepped a few articles to publish, but you probably won't really hear from me for about a week.   As always, your amazingly supportive comments have made this burden so much lighter.  See you on the other side…






  1. I’m so proud of you. When I saw you on IG this morning my heart hurt a little, but way to rock today. What an experience at the salon! I love seeing your smile with your boys- I’m know it is harder than we all know, but your smile is inspiring. And I love the wig- too cute on you.

  2. I completely know what you are going through. I was diagnosed with breast cancer when my twin boys were 14 months old. Reading your story makes my heart ache for you. You are so incredibly strong and brave to share this with all of us. I’m sending a great big hug your way!
    P.S. The headscarves are the way to go. I had a wig too, but mostly wore scarves. There is a wonderful organization that will send a free scarf (gorgeous silk ones) to anyone who has a need for them.

  3. This got me all teary. I’m an oncology nurse, this give me such incredible perspective of my brace hearted patients! People like you! Sending you love and prayers!
    You are brave and beautiful mama!!!

  4. Long time reader, first time commenter. I’m Orthodox Jewish so I wear a wig all the time πŸ™‚ The more you wear it the more you get used to it and it will stop giving you headaches. You can also buy something called a wig band that many women swear makes them more comfortable and will also be useful for keeping the wig on if/when every last strand falls out. It looks like a great wig though, from the picture I’d never guess. Lots of prayers your way!

  5. I got so many cards after I was diagnosed with breast cancer (at 36 with two young kiddos). My favorite card was from a friend who’d been there, too. “You can do this. You’re stronger than you think.” That was and has remained my favorite card. I was diagnosed a year ago this week, and had my final reconstruction last month. I am so happy to be healthy, and on the other side of this all. A friend posted this article on FB and it instantly reminded me of the one I did last year.

  6. Seriously beautiful in all these stages mama. And I suspect every stage from this point on you will be beautiful as well. You are giving it to us truthfully, with a side of humor that I think any of us could only hope to have in this situation. You are one rockin & brave gal. So glad I found your blog many many years ago. Sending strong vibes out to you & your family.

  7. Oh Shana – you are handling this with such grace and humor. I know that your heart is hurting, but your eyes, smile and spirit remain beautiful. Take care of your precious self Strong Lady.

  8. I love your blog because not only do you have a wonderful sense of humour and fantastic style, you are an awesome Mother and Wife. Stay strong! Prayers are going out for you and your family from Edmonton, Alberta, Canada πŸ™‚

  9. You’re amazing. I was talking with a breast cancer Survivior today and she kept saying guess what you’re not your hair! It’s still tough though, but you’re beautiful no matter what. Hugs!

  10. Shana, you are a serious bada*s! You still look gorgeous and so cool, and your writing is as sharp as ever. All while going through chemo. Thanks for sharing all of this–your attitude, grit and style are inspiring.

  11. I LOVE the scarf. I love it. You rock it and you look AMAZING in it. Pretty hair is replaced with a pretty scarf – that’s how I feel when I see a woman in a beautiful scarf. I am going to start wearing more headscarves! Thinking of you this week. Love and hugs and prayers and all that jazz from New Zealand. WE LOVE YOU and I am sharing my strength with you through cyberspace. xxxx

  12. I feel like I know you, and even though we have never met I am so proud to call you Sister. A Sister in this Universe. I never stopped to think what the process of losing one’s hair must be like, on top of everything else. The grief of losing something that is so much a part of you. But you are doing it. You are doing crazy hard things, and you are creating so much beauty in the world because of your strength. But let yourself feel whatever you want to feel. It’s okay to feel all of it. That’s important too. I like so many others am keeping you in my heart and on my mind. Sending up whatever I can to ease this burden for you. Hang in there. One moment at a time. This, too, shall pass. You are brave. You are strong. You can do hard things.

  13. Oh gosh. You’re amazing. How you keep upbeat and yet so real is amazing. You make me tear up every time I read. But I’m so glad you are showing the world how it really is instead of hiding away. I’m not sure I could be that amazing.

  14. You are gorgeous! You are rocking the hair at any length – you inner beauty and strength shines through, no matter what. You are an inspiration. Stay strong! Sending love and light your way!!

  15. I got all teary eyed reading this. Thinking about you each and every day and wishing you healing with every fiber of my being. You are beautiful and no one can take it away, not even cancer!

  16. Shana, thank you for being such an inspiration, as a mom and a woman. I will be continuing to keep you in my thoughts this week… You are doing an amazing job fighting like a girl with such grace and humor and strength. -Cheralyn/wrldpeas

  17. I am teary reading this. Thank you for sharing. You are truly amazing. I love your attitude. Lots of prayers for you and your family! Oh and by the way your boys are completely adorable but I’m sure you knew that πŸ˜‰

  18. You are a beautiful being Shana with a sparkly soul. Nothing can change that. You are and will always be gorgeous. Sending you so much love. So. Much. Love.

  19. Peace and love and strength and good things to you, Mama. You are awesome – in every sense of the word. And I kinda dig the faux hawk…

  20. I’ve read your website for 3 years now, adore it but have only ever commented once before. I just wanted to tell you how incredibly inspiring I find your braveness in the face of all you are going through. I have cried and I have (fortunately) laughed along with you, and my heart goes out to you and your family. I am sending you love from the other side of the world and remain convinced that you will get through this!!!! Ps – you absolutely rock short hair!!!

  21. Sending lots of good thoughts. And whenever I’ve seen photos of women without their hair, I’ve always seen such extraordinary forms of beauty in their faces. Things that are unexpected, things that make me amazed at the human form and all it holds.

  22. you rock every one of those cuts AND the headscarf too! wow. gorgeous face, you. hang in there mama!!! you’re in the game!

  23. You look amazing as always!! Even the wig looks great! (although i’m sorry to hear it’s uncomfortable πŸ™ Also you ARE amazing- your courage and humour and heart… I am so floored. Keep smiling and keep doing everything you’re doing!! xo from Toronto

  24. There is nothing I can say that the amazing people ahead of me already said. I have tears in my eyes. I am thinking of you. You are amazing and strong, and what those ahead of me said reaffirms my faith in humanity and the internet (if such a thing is possible). It’s not all trolls and cray-crays. Love and strength to you and your family, gorgeous woman.

  25. RIght there with you, all the way! the haircuts all look great — and you are clearly going to rock the bald. πŸ™‚ (I ditched the wig so quickly; it does feel all clumpy, when for once in your life, you can just hop in your clothes and be ready! πŸ™‚

  26. I second what everyone has said already. I really liked the fauxhawk, I hope we see that one again when your hair grows back out.
    I really like the look of the headscarf a lot. In that last picture, I love those pants you are wearing, they look so comfy, where are they from?

  27. I’m so grateful that you are keeping us part of your story. I care so much about you considering I’ve never met you! Thinking of you today.

  28. You totally rocked all the haircuts, from the pixie to the Texas cheerleader. Even the scarf was totally adorable on you.
    Also, I prayed for you this morning. That God would carry you through this next round of chemo and give you strength.

  29. Shana you are an inspiration to all women and you are truly stunning with or without hair. I have alopecia and I know how much it sucks to see your hair EVERYWHERE you go! Like Hansel and Gretel if we get lost we can always follow the trail back home πŸ™‚
    Will be thinking of you this week. Keep smiling that beautiful smile xx

  30. you look super cute in every single one of those haircuts! And the wig? Perfect. Wigs should be all about “go big or go home.” So what if you only where it for an hour to the grocery store? Blessings and Godspeed.
    Oh! And I bought some camo skinny pants, plus the knit blazer from Nordies, and a Nordies fleece asymetrical wrap you talked about months ago. All because of you! πŸ™‚

  31. You are truly an inspiration.
    It seems like the past few years breast cancer is every where I look – family, friends, and even people I “know” through the internet. I just hate it.
    I really like the scarf look by the way!

  32. As always, you’re amazing and an inspiration. thank you for sharing such a personal story and pictures. You can really rock a headscarf fabulously too πŸ™‚

  33. Your attitude is so inspiring. This all seems to be happening so quickly- this post rocked me this morning. I’m literally sitting on the floor in my kitchen with tears in my eyes. You’re inspiring so many with your courage and chin up spirit. You are absolutely beautiful- inside and out. Praying for you this next week and beyond.

  34. You look great in all the cuts! I like the scarf too! Will be praying for you as you go through this round of chemo. You guys have amazing jammies by the way! They all look so cute and comfy!

  35. Dear Shana,
    Thank you for showing us your intense and personal experience. It has really given me some insight into what people go through. Wow. Your strong and beautiful soul is shining even more brightly without the hair. You look gorgeous in every picture! I know the last chemo session left you feeling awful. I am hoping that this time it will be emotionally easier. Sending you a big hug!!!

  36. S-
    You are beautiful no matter what’s going on up there on the pate! Seriously, I do LOVE the short ‘do on you (not “Mommish” at all but funky cool!) I wish you all the best on chemo #2. This can’t be easy but hopefully sharing your experience with all of us can lighten your load a bit. LOVE!

  37. You have such a fantastic attitude to all of this: it’s inspiring. Though I hope and trust that you’re giving yourself permission to throw a good few tantrums, too! And to look ugly from time to time πŸ™‚
    You look magnificent in all these pictures. I don’t think you need the uncomfortable wig – you look so fab in a headscarf.
    And I’m looking forward to seeing you rock all these short haircuts again on the way back up.
    Thanks for keeping us up to date.

  38. …and you make me want short hair. see, you can’t help but be a trend setter no matter what!! have fun with the wigs, you can be a different personality every day! My friend lost her hair after her chemo, and she got a few very different, very fun wigs. One day she said she wondered if her neighbors thought her husband was having an affair because it looked like a different woman was leaving the house every day- oh inappropriate humor, how i love you.
    Rock on Moma! We are praying for you!

  39. Rooting for you, Shana. Thank you for sharing your incredibly personal story with us. Your attitude is truly contagious as is your sense of humor.

  40. I hope you can feel the love and support from all of us. I wish there was more that I could do from WI! Last night, I showed my husband your instagram pic and said ‘S is getting her hair buzzed today’ then I got all teary. Right there with you mama.

  41. Thanks for sharing your experience with us. Your gorgeous eyes and smile make you shine! And I think the wig looks great! Best wishes to you.

  42. I’m rooting for you SO much. I’m 37, too with two little ones as well so I KNOW where a lot of your strength is coming from, gal. What I don’t know is how you are able to make ALL of your haircuts look so chic. From asymmetrical pixie to Texas cheerleader to head wrap — you just keep shining. Thinking of you and your beautiful family! You inspire me in so many ways that go waaay beyond fashion (although, I will confess — I did just buy some camo skinnies. And the Adidas dragon sneaks. And a flannel cap from J. Crew. And I would have gotten the flannel scarf and Bien Fait sweatshirt from Madewell if they weren’t, hmph, backordered. The other inspiration, well, you can’t see it on my (now scary) credit card statement but, trust me, it’s there. In a big way.)

  43. Your grace and strength- it’s truly admirable. Thank you for bringing us along the way on your challenging journey. Just by the number surely many us us will deal with it too sometime down the road…Sending you peace and light.

  44. Ah Shana, this made me weep. Not because of the hair but because of your beautiful spirit. Hair will grow back, turn gray and eventually we will all end up with badly colored blue hair. But that spirit you’ve got, you just can’t find that often in this life. Sending you loads of prayers and love vibes this morning.

  45. I started coming here to get some closet inspiration. After reading for several months, now this…this life inspiration. Obviously not a road you chose, but damn mama, the way you’ve chosen to walk it?? Serious inspiration for mamas everywhere. Keep on rocking it, we are all here with you in spirit.
    Ps – I’m a pharmacist. Take your happy drugs.

  46. You look gorgeous in every cut! (I actually like the Texas cheerleader look.) If anyone I know gets cancer (or me) I’m sending them here to see how you handled it with style and grace. And for tips on how to look good while undergoing chemo. You rock, by the way.

  47. You are f’ing amazing. I hope this time becomes fodder for your novel because, on top of all else, you are a wonderful writer. Thinking of you during round #2. xoxo

  48. Shaving my hair was one of the hardest parts of it all for me. I still miss it. But my last treatment was July 20 (AC-T), and it is growing in really fast now!

  49. Wow, you are f’ing amazing. All of it—the inner & outer beauty are shining through here. Definitely a primer on handling ANYTHING with grace and rockin’ style!

  50. What an incredible strength and gift your writer’s honesty is. This is one of your best posts, ever. It’s so beautifully real. You look great with short hair, the punk rock pixie look is always fun! Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing your story with us. Sending love & light your way!

  51. My heart goes out to you. You are so amazing and strong to share what you’re going through. Plus…you look great with short hair so something to consider for the future! I will be thinking of you during your chemo.

  52. I found your blog a week after one of my besties was diagnosed with breast cancer. I was looking for styling tips! Please write that kids book you mentioned. I’ve been screening them for my friend’s daughters and most are so lame!

  53. Wow Shana, this post was on the top of my FB feed this morning and I was absolutely STUNNED, stunned by the gorgeous, GORGEOUS in all caps, girl in the pic. Then I was like, Oh! that’s Shana! Which you are always beautiful by the way but that short Mia Farrow haircut, wow.
    And then I ran over to the blog to get the update and again I was blown away by how incredibly beautiful you are just in a headscarf. Not everyone can be so lucky but you have one of those faces, delicately feminine, perfect cheekbones, cute nose, shinning eyes, contagious smile and perfectly drawn contours. I could go on and on but I’m not here to creap you out! I’m just glad that at least in the midst of this incredibly trying time and losing your hair, you can look in the mirror and still see a very attractive person. And I hope you do, I hope you can see it too. And I know it sounds superficial and maybe it is a little, ok it is, but it helps I’m sure. Of course your inner beauty is what counts and you don’t lack in that either.
    I’m sorry this comment is altogether too long but I have more to say… I am still and have not stopped praying for you and Mike and the boys. You are brave, Mike is strong but this season in your lives is probably pretty dark and heavy so I pray that you would know that there is a God of love who is waiting and willing to carry your burden and in exchange give you a peace that surpasses all understanding to guard your heart and mind. I’m praying that He would send someone to you when you need a hug, a phone call when you need to vent, or a dinner when nobody feels like cooking but above all an undeniable sense of being loved. You are loved girl.

  54. I don’t know if this will help you a whole lot, but when I used to work backstage at the opera, we would take the wigs and pull out about every other row of hair on it by using a seam ripper. This makes the wig look a lot more natural, and a lot less warm; as far as wigs go.
    Your 4th haircut is my haircut! but that is because my hair is falling out naturally, and I have to do a bit of comb over.
    hugs to you and yours!

  55. Hey Shana,
    I don’t know you but I’ve ready your blog for years. I wanted tell you that you and your family have the support of me and my family.
    You have an amazing attitude, and your beautiful soul will always be the first thing your boys see. And you ALSO look great.

  56. My heart hurts for the pain under your upbeat words. AND you are SO LOVELY! Many women only have beauty in their hair….and then loose it. At least you are a slender beautiful woman. And Yet. My heart just aches for your process, and I am so grateful you are sharing it so well, with such darling haircuts, with such strength. Thank you for trusting us. I pray God blesses you and your family with full health and healing. And cooler wig action. You do rock the scarf.

  57. You are phenomenal. Hang in there. And re: headscarves, I want to see you rock one in leopard print or plaid, like in your print-mixing article!

  58. We’re rooting for you from Washington State. Hair or no hair, you are a beautiful mama. Sending you strength for the journey.

  59. When I scanned this really quickly, I at first thought the “glamour shot” was from a few months ago, when you had a full head of hair – had no idea it was a wig! Your gorgeous spirit & impeccable style is shining through Shana. See you on the other side. xo

  60. I don’t know you, never met you. Just want to give you a shout out — you’re one awesome lady. Seriously. Your family and friends are fortunate to know you. πŸ™‚

  61. P.S. The shots of you with your boys are gorgeous and literally moved me to tears. After checking out this post I went in to hug my boys while they were napping and accidentally woke one of them up. Oops.

  62. My God…. How gorgeous you continue to look! In spite of everything you are still such a beauty. AND an inspiration to boot. You are my new hero and I am gonna be thinking about you all day tomorrow.
    Think of this enormous cheering squad you have all over the country if you need to, there are so many mamas who will be with you in spirit tomorrow.

  63. Thank you for sharing so much of your story with us. I am in awe of your spirit. I’ve been a follower for a few years and back when I was coming out of my preggo, post-partum ‘horrible’ clothes phase, you inspired me to dress my new body better. Now, you inspire me in so many more ways than just fashion. For this, thank you. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts. Take care

  64. You look wonderful — because you’re beautiful whatever’s on top of your head, and because your spirt shines through! I hope they can tweak the meds a bit this time so the chemo is easier. And I hope remembering all of us rooting for you helps during the few dark days. See you on the other side!

  65. Oh Shana, you are rocking this hair, chemo and mostly ATTITUDE. Even though it may not always feel like it (and it’s okay that it doesn’t), your outward shine is admirable to say the least. Definitely inspiring. You’ve got an army of supporters who are rooting for you through this blog and looking forward to the end of this chapter for you. All the very very best. Throw #2 down and stomp on it!

  66. Shana you and your family are in my prayers and my thoughts! I am sending good vibes your way! You are such an inspiring woman!

  67. Praying for you & your family. How rough. πŸ™ I don’t know if you’ve ever heard of the ketogenic diet or gerson therapy, but I’ve heard they’ve had amazing results with cancer. But totally disregard this if you aren’t in the mood for suggestions right now. I just want to help. I love your blog & have so much respect for how strong you are through all of this. Such an inspiration. πŸ™‚

  68. You are beautiful. Bald spots, pixie haircut, wig, or headscarf – you are just shining through so don’t worry about it! I think I like the headscarf best. But the wig looks great – probably good for those times when you don’t feel like announcing to the world your situation.
    Also, I think it’s so funny that you loved that she had a private room for the haircut yet you took photos of yourself for the world to see anyway πŸ™‚

  69. I’ve been reading your blog for quite some time now (2 years?) and I have never commented, but I have to say – you are awesome! Thank you for sharing your amazing sense of style and letting your readers into your life! Sending loads of positive thoughts your way!

  70. Thank you, Shana, for the perspective.
    Last night I fell asleep worrying about my hair; I’d gone WAY DARK after having been a blonde for almost 15 years (“Oh my God! Does it make me look old? Am I still pretty? What was I thinking?!”)
    This morning I read your post and was humbled and reprimanded for my vanity. It’s just hair, after all, and I’m lucky enough to have some. I thank you.
    Peace to you, Lovely!

  71. You are so beautiful, and so brave! Thank you for sharing your story. You are an inspiration. Sending good thoughts your way this week!

  72. I couldn’t have said it any better so this +1!!
    All of this makes me feel real (real, real) bad about knocking your friends’ faux fur vest a few years ago… xoxo

  73. Terri, is it you? Β Really you?? Β LOL Β I actually loved that old exchange. Β To this day, your final response to all of that old debate really impressed me. Β It's so easy to throw out a half-thought-out comment into the internet (over your morning coffee)….but it's a whole other thing to then turn around and be as gracious as you were. Β SO happy to hear from you again. Β xoxo

  74. Thinking of you, wishing you ALL the strength and awesome attitude you have been showcasing thus far. You are an inspiration and in more ways than one. Thank you.

  75. Shana, just stumbled across this blog. LOVE IT and everything about it!!! Just wanted to send you some virtual love. Not only am I a fashionista mom, I am a cancer survivor and I know exactly what it’s like to go through chemo, lose my hair, etc. Love how you’re doing it with grace and style. All of your haircuts are so adorable. My cancer experience led to me to a very fulfilling career at the American Cancer Society. Most people don’t know that ACS helps cancer patients as well as being the largest private funder of cancer research. Here are just some of the ways ACS can help. Another great resource is our 24 hour (365 days a year) hotline that can help with any issue related to cancer (1-800-227-2345). Wishing you lots of luck with the rest of your treatment!

  76. Just stumbled across your blog and I’m in love with it! Sending all the love and happiness the internet can carry your way while you endure chemo! xx

  77. Okay, these days, each time I read your blog I shop and then I cry! Thank you for sharing your journey. I know this sounds weird, but you really do look great, even with the headscarf. Hang in there. You’re going to get through this!!!

  78. I am in awe of your spirit, your bravery, your BALLS. Am I allowed to say that? But mama, its true…you are ballsy and gorgeous and amazing. I think I would cave under the stress but you are holding up a beacon of strength. I am praying for your health all the way from California. Mwah.

  79. You looked amazing with each of your haircuts, beautiful with the wig, and pretty fantastic with the headscarf, too! I’ve been a loyal reader for years, and pray for you with every new blog post. Stay strong. Your boys are so lucky to have you as their mama.

  80. You are a rock star. Your spirit and strength shines through every single shot. And to top it off you are hilarious. My kind of gal!!! Thinking of you and your family and thanks again for sharing this journey.

  81. Shana,
    I was exactly where you are now, one year ago! I am amazed that the year went so fast because in the middle of chemotherapy, it feels like a lifetime. But, you CAN and WILL get through it! I found that the losing of my hair was actually not near as bad as I thought it would be. I also barely wore my wig – come on, I live in Texas! It’s WAY too hot! I pray for you the greatest of outcomes and the grace of God as you go through this. PLEASE feel free to contact me if you need someone to ask questions of or to talk to even if that is just by internet! God Bless!

  82. I’ve only just discovered your blog, and I already love you. Hoping you and your boys (big and small) get through this quickly and can go back to a long and healthy life as usual.

  83. ‘Tis I! Your blog is still the first I read every morning all this time later. I loved that exchange too, I got to scratch so many itches with that one (express my fear of losing my True Heart Blog, jealousy, self-righteousness, adoration, etc.). Can’t wait for my favorite blog post of the year, the Christmas edition- tell me what I want for Christmas, Shana! xoxo.

  84. Can I cut my wig?
    Yes!Your wig comes pre-styled with a basic style, but we encourage our clients to have their wigs customized by a professional hair stylist.This is a great way to make the wig uniquely your own. Often, a little trim on the bangs and a little thinning here or there can make all the difference in the world.The wig should be cut while you are wearing it. Everyone has a different face shape, a different forehead length, and different style preferences.Seek out the assistance of experienced professional, and only allow the wig to be cut while it is on your head.

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