This week has not been what I’d call…a good one. Seemingly overnight, everything in Philly shut down, the kids are home full-time, and Mike has literally been sleeping only 2-4 hours a night — working the rest. He and his team have been building a tool to help hospitals and governments predict the number of COVID-19 patients their hospitals will need to treat in the weeks to come, and when those hospitals will likely reach max capacity.
At this point, even the best-case scenarios are terrifying.
So while Mike shuts himself away in the room upstairs, venturing out only for food, a hug, and once even a good cry…I’m left trying to hold down the fort.
Spoiler: This fort is coming apart at the seams.
I started off on a high note. We cleaned out and organized the playroom last Sunday, and I had All of The Big Homeschooling Hopes and Dreams.
By noon on Monday I was on my 2nd zoom call of the day, snapping at my kids; by 4PM they had gotten into some sort of physical altercation, and by the time I found myself making dinner at 8:45PM (seriously WTF)…I was in tears.
In desperation, I texted Linzi, “FINISH YOUR POST ALREADY” then logged into the TME backend so I could grab a pre-published copy of her schedules and suggested activities.
They were hung late Monday night. I have not looked at them since.
In truth, I have no idea how my kids have been spending their time. I know Raines has been making vague school-related noises and I find bits of random paper all over the house A few numbers are scribbled on one, a drawing on the other. He also spent the better part of one day making (and then painting) a WWII battleship which he claims may be “extra credit” when they return back to school.
I didn’t have the heart to tell him that school may be done for the year. We’ll see.
Raines did make some progress. Primarily because I sat down and did his work with him. It was fun — we messed around with a math problem whose solution involved a pattern we just weren’t seeing — puzzling it out together was great.
But it meant that I did none of my actual work. Okthen.
This week, from a work perspective, was really tough. And yet, from a momming perspective, it also felt like a fail. There were no creative projects, no family game nights, no STEM enrichment activities. We didn’t even leave the house every day. Raines is not caught up on schoolwork. Mike is a barely functioning human, and my own stress level makes me want to hide under a blanket and read vapid books about girls finding love in the big city.
This week has been a doozy.
My expectations were that by Week 2, I’d be feeling more hopeful. That we’d have some sort of schedule in mind, that I’d have a shot at a better work-life balance, and, quite frankly, that I’d have my husband back.
Well. It looks like none of those things are coming true.
Pax, on the other hand, has unexpectedly been living his best life. The classic second kid, he has flown under alllll of our school-related-radar, and instead has spent his time doing laundry, cooking us lunch, reading, and chatting with his friends on Zoom. I just…I have no words.
Pax also managed to convince me, Friday morning, to just pause my work and “make something delicious and chocolate”. And after such a crappy week, it really did sound like, well, the only possible solution. So I looked up an old recipe I used to make when Raines and Pax were little, a gluten-free ‘gooey chocolate cake’ from La Tartine Gourmande (that you eat melty and warm out of the oven). Raines wandered into the kitchen and decided to help, we had Alexa play French music (to be on theme), and it ended up being the brightest spot in a really rough week.
So…yeah. Week 2, here we come.
I hope we have enough chocolate.
Those gooey chocolate cakes. La Tartine Gourmande’s gooey chocolate cakes makes three little cakes if you use ramekins. If your ramekins have all inexplicably disappeared over the years…we made ours in silicone baking cups (on a cookie sheet). The recipe makes seven little cakes — just reduce the cook time by a few minutes. I always swap out the tahini for either peanut or almond butter…and any type of flour will work.
Our MVP right now. Our Amazon Show has been a lifesaver. We’ve been using it to drop in on our parents. Unlike Zoom, it takes 2 seconds to drop in (so the kids can do it whenever), and the image and sound is usually much better than Zoom. I don’t know what my Mom (who is currently in her apartment alone) would do without this thing.
Pajama jeans for video conferencing. These FRAME jeans are easily the softest jeans I own. They’re one of the few I’ve been willing to wear all day as I work from home (because Home Is For Sweatpants), and I love the classic, dark wash. Just clean and cool. (Oh geez – also on sale at Nordstrom, here.)
Possibly nobody cares. In case anyone has high hopes that they’ll need a swimsuit this summer…the massive order I had originally placed (before coronavirus — BCV?)…included this suit that happens to be the most comfortable swimsuit I’ve EVER put on. Fit is TTS, and so freaking cute.
Well…it does have pockets. We need to discuss AG’s t-shirt maxi dress. While it does have pockets…it also has, um, volume. I’ve been seeing this trend of late, these rather tent-like dresses and I can’t quite decide if they are actually pieces I will want to wear out of the house someday or pieces I want to wear RIGHT NOW ONLY. This house arrest is messing with my mind.
Shopping local….We had pulled together an article highlighting our favorite local businesses to support via online orders…and then many of them closed completely on Friday. We’re re-working that article, though, so hold tight. In the meantime…Morgan over at ShopBURU mentioned on IG that she and her husband live a couple of blocks from their distribution center, so any orders will literally be packed and shipped by them personally. She’s fantastic, and ShopBURU is a lovely website to get lost in. Cam’s outfit on our Girl’s Night In IG Live last Friday was ShopBURU, and I plan on ordering this set for warm weather lounging.
It’s Gen X’s time to shine. DYING. This article is totally cracking me up.
I had bookmarked a few other helpful COVID-19 articles…but I just don’t have it in me. Maybe next week. In the meantime, we’ve been having some great discussions in our new FB Group, The Mom Edit Insiders, we’ve been going live on IG almost daily (@themomedit), and our special Sunday night newsletter is What To Wear To Video Conference (the pants will be a surprise). If you haven’t already, you can subscribe here.
Here’s to health and sanity, gang.